wads new

2011-12-07T20:45:00.002+08:00

is the third day of attachment okay im being

slow to update having safety talks for the

past 2 days + today tomorrow fell a sleep

during the talk but seriously cant help it

i have to wake up at 4.30 to bathe and

catch the first train but

hearing the talks make me realize that

i must take life seriously on shipyard and

make me think of my family. ahhahas

tomorrrow we are going

to onboard the vessel hhahahs cant wait

for it and im excited

2011-11-30T19:42:00.003+08:00

hello whats up? human! hahahs

im here again! im excited for

the attachment next week

cant wait my lecturer say it

will be an eye opener for us

because we are newbie in this

industry erm not say newbie

is about our future decision

whether to take this up as our

career. hopefully i can gain lots

of knowledge at JSPL.

im like a happy kid now

dajie says Long Champ got sales

and i replied you want to buy

for me as my birthday present?

she replied okay see how much

it cost. hopefully not so ex please

cause i need a hand bag for future

purposes and for cny hahahs

going to have a look on Friday

and 4S too. im in a happy mood now

okay bye peeps:D

2011-11-29T20:08:00.002+08:00

okay finally got free time for my own

but im bored sissy using ipad +

computer + watching television

seem like she can multitask alot

hahahs. currently dont know what

to do there is no show on the channel

and everybody is talking about kpop

seriously im left out. attachment

starts next week im soo looking forward

to it. hope i do gain some experience

and knowledge there. okay until here!

2011-11-23T00:16:00.003+08:00

i nearly lost the precious phone you gave

me during my birthday last year.

how careless am i? or this is a sign that

im really OVER you? i dont know either.

flashback begin again and i hate it much.

23 more days to my birthday but i felt

nothing because you are not by my side.

i still remember you was looking for

chocolate cake for me on the 14 dec 10

and im so blurr got tricked by you.

and when the clock strike 12 we ate

and share that slice of cakes together.

how sweet of it you even feed me with

the cake. how i wish you are by my

side now holding on my hand tightly.

but well now i only like oreo cheesecake

which is your favorite cake.

but too bad if only time could stop at

that moment or rewind it again.

2011-11-16T19:06:00.003+08:00

hello its been a long time here.

Life has been great just a little

confuse about friendship but

i have made up my mind to stay

far away from her although we

knew each other since primary 1

well you are 20 this year and

you have a mindset of a secondary

school kid like you would purposely

speak vulgarity loudly and make

the public stare at you and you reply

stare what stare and you walk

like a gangster own me money

dont know how to automatic

return money to me must people

ask than you return i cant be bothered

to even ask back my money so what with

this friend of mind? okay forgot about her

and i will always meet friendly

people round the world.^^

2011-11-03T22:24:00.002+08:00

hello to all so this is the picture for halloween

didnt take much picture of it as it is too dark

over at USS and our camera is our phone

so is blurry please understand hahahs.

okay the haunted house is like super scary

i was shocked and scared + their costume

was super scary and looked real.

hs jy jx was shocked they start screaming

and shocked me than i start to scream too

hahhahas. we went to the roller coaster too

we was scare and our heart nearly dropped.

after that we walk around and took picture

but some picture is inside their phone so if

you want to view it go to my facebook to

check it out. lai pa pa actually want to take

cab and bring us to our supper but the queue

was crazy so we took night rider to amk

for about 1 hour plus lai pa pa meet his

friend and he drove us to eat zi char after that

he drove us back home. after that day i been

feeling sick til now not fully recover. yup

so blog til here!((:

2011-10-27T20:13:00.002+08:00

sorry for not updating for a week plus

have been busy working and schooling.

lately i meet many gentlemen,

be it at work or school hahahahs.

as for today during practical

my hand got cut my by the sharp metal

after threading was looking for plaster

in those 3 workshops but they are dusty

my classmate saw me looking at the

first aid kit and he give me one plaster

how nice of him hahahs. he is

the want that i dislike the most hahahs

after all i find him ok as he always

speak in a rude manner. hahahs

so today ended school at 12 head straight

home watch some drama on the net and

slept for 1 hour plus and ate cup noodles

for dinner, watched television too.

im so excited for halloween tomorrow

at USS hahahs. shall take lots of photo.

and upload to bloggy and facebook((:

2011-10-16T23:54:00.002+08:00

ok this post is for me to vent out all my anger

for today's work. this guy ah ping so freaking

dumb always block my way for doing things

and will scold me when i cant do fast fuck him!!

block my way still have the cheek to say til

like this. and just now when my cake fruits

drop i asked him to help me put the fruits nicely

as his hand is clean and he told me my own thing

also haven do finish how to help you. seriously

at that moment i feel like taking my bag and

go home MIA from them it just take a few seconds

to help me. in the end i walked a big round to get

glove and make the cake look nice. and WTF

they still got time to change clothes and come back

and punch card at that vary moment i just feel

like stepping on is toe. really FUCK UP!! next time

i will just be self hearted as she can talk to his

same country people in a proper manner and

SCOLD ME LIKE THIS shut up uh BASTARDS!! somemore

there is a long Q so i helped the cashier to pack

the bread and i finally clear the Q i said YAY

he walk behind and say something bad about

me seriously FUCK YOU!! GET A LIFE PLEASE!!

2011-10-13T22:13:00.003+08:00

school was fine this morning til afternoon

while we where discussing about project

this irritating classmate of mine name

DENIS is so freaking rude when he talks,

and every suggestion he give he would

say the fuck word and sometime would

point middle finger and im pissed off by

what he says as i wanted a pass only for

our project as there isnt enough time

for us to finish it and we have to check

the pricing and get approve by teacher

it would confirm take up a month to do all

this as our group people is all those lepak

type. he reply me in a sarcastic manner

no i dont want to get just pass only

is like WTF?? im just saying only he dont

need to speak in this manner right?? but

of cause if there is a chance i want to get

a good great for it too. i feel like punching

his face and put plaster on his lips.

ok chill down. chill down. shall not talk about

him anymore. so bused home clean my room

and have my dinner and watched television

thats all for today.

2011-10-12T22:32:00.006+08:00

went to school for about an hour and off

to thomson plaza to meet sissy and mum.

had our early lunch at peach garden restaurant.

the food there was nice. if you are a dim sum

lover you might want to try it. after we finish

we took a walk around there as it is my first

time being there nothing much but i bought myself

2 track pants with comfy materials. cabbed home

with sissy she chatted with mum and dad for awhile

and left the house at 3. dinner as usual mum take

away food from downstairs had yi mian. watched

television. so this is how it pass by a day.

the eggtarts was super nice

the desert was awesome!((:

thanks sissy who bought me swiss roll.((:

2011-10-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

im back again!! this morning was intending

to skip todays lesson as im very shag but

my last decision i decided to go to school and was

the first to reach class hahahas pound myself

today. was super blur and my reaction very

slow hahahs. cant blame me for that.

so after the lesson end i went straight home

and i sleep til about 5+ when mummy wake me

up to eat my dinner was unwilling to wake up

but still i manage to force myself to wake up

and eat dinner, watch television and online now.

nothing much actually happen today as im

a good girl today.

2011-10-11T19:31:00.012+08:00

Maritime Experiential Learning Camp Onboard SuperStar Virgo

11 to 17th September if i never get the date wrong.((:

my cabin pass

denis's new watch.

my face kana blocked.

beach at Radang. can you see our cruise?

the traffic at Vietnam

Nice view of Vietnam

the kitchen. which is name as gallery onboard the ships

the wind is damn strong will we fly off?

woah! pretty girl. hahahs

argh! i miss having fun with cabin mates.

i know these photos was abit slow sorry for that.

and i only uploaded selected photos as im kind

of lazy to upload the whole entire 800+ pictures.

2011-10-05T23:19:00.002+08:00

hello! im such a good girl today

never go to school instead i

stayed at home for the whole day

surfing internet and sleeping til

i have an bad headache and i woke

up. now i feel so weird mummy is

sleeping soundly and im surfing

internet only the two of us are at

home its so quiet that i keep

making some weirdo noise hahahs.

2011-09-29T16:00:00.002+08:00

shall blog about yesterday have a great

time with my friends ate JustAsia for

dinner as my friend wanted to eat at

there and was chatting while we were

eating they are like hinting something

and trying to matchmaker =.=

and asked me my past relationship

i seriously dont feel like talking about

it but since they asked i just told them

with my face smiling actually i have

forgotten her just that the hurting

has done a great impact in m y life.

so how am i going to put those things

behind?? just like what they say

even the wounds is heal there

will always left behind a scar.

2011-09-29T12:02:00.001+08:00

LOOK AT THIS HAHAHAHS

DONT PLAY MAPLE!!

2011-09-28T10:12:00.003+08:00

Good morning! going to meet my

beloved friends later.

i keep forgetting to post this. im so

happy about it. im kind of scare

to go to work nowadays as the

baker keep disturbing me and

one guy which i mention him

before as big brother(da ge) just

because he asked me whether

i have a facebook account cause

he want to add me than i give

and they started to disturb. hahahs

very paiseh when they disturb.

oh well i should pretend that im

busy working so that they wont

diturb me again.((:

2011-09-26T12:57:00.002+08:00

ok its been a while that im here blogging.

it has been 1 year 1 day our anniversary.

i never ask for anything just hope you

are doing fine as im doing fine without you.

started working for the first day after a long

break and i should say im getting old, work

for a few hours and my body starts aching

especially my shoulder seem like it haven

recover from the last injury i had. hmm~

blog til here!:D

2011-09-19T11:04:00.002+08:00

hello everybody im back!!! did you miss me?

have a enjoyable and a memorable MEL camp

i miss my cabin crew as everyday we would

wake one another up to bathe and have

breakfast together and most importantly

we get to know our classmates better im kind

of sad as there is no laughter any more when

i woke up. sigh~ this is life isn't it? everything

has turn into reality. I have learn quite a lot

during this MEL camp e.g HEART stands for

humour, enthusiasm, attitude, relationship

and trust. and many more. i hope we will have

another outing together on cruise although is

boring but our friends will try and make some

funny jokes out of everything. hahahas(((:D

2011-09-08T09:56:00.003+08:00

pissed off with the second one yesterday.

she got her OWN room but she make it like

a rubbish dump even the floor full of

plastic bag wrapper and paper all around.

and she purposely want to sleep in the

place where i use laptop. come on you

say they dont want to throw the bed away

ok that is fine with it but look at the floor

you can just put you bed there as last time

you always sleep on that place. you got no

brain is it? and you are an awesome actor

isnt it? always like to pretend to jump down

all this and say what you got depression

i tell you this i wont show any sympathy on you.

just get a life i didnt know you have no brains

you can go to a hotel and sleep. on

chinese new year this year you did that when

that jacks is flaring up what and only told us

the next day say that you have go to the hotel

and book a room. this is seriously a joke

you can do this that time why cant you do the

same yesterday this what i say your acting was

great. you have been acting since young when

i was naughty and still learning whats right

and wrong i put your phone to rubbish bin

as im flaring at something i cant remember

what im flaring at and eventually one fine

day your phone is spoiled and i ask you weather

is it i make spoil you say no but later infront

of mummy you say i repeated myself

i thought is i make spoil and you said ya

is i make spoil so i remembered the

whole thing in my life.

when i was 8 years old it was my birthday and

i was watching the same tv channel

everyday and you said dont think today

is your birthday we must give in to you.

and i was 14 years old you purposely say

those hush things when we was going to

hougang mall and of cause i shouted back

at you. and mummy beat in me public because

of you. you slapped me and i slapped you back

your scpecs dropped on the floor and mummy

asked to pick up i dont want to pick up den

mummy started beating me in the public.

when i was 15 years old i stand outside the

room quietly and want to hear what are you

all talking about you said that who in our

house have a lot of pimples ask her to do lar.

is like fuck!!! even when you are having

pimple at the age of 15 i say infront of you

as i am still a kid and dont know anything

about growing up.

and when i was 18 you said infront of others

i thought your gpa will be higher than me

is like obviously as im from normal tech you

dont need to say until like this.

i will remember all your doings and i will

revenge back and see how you feels.

2011-09-01T19:15:00.001+08:00

2011-08-29T23:30:00.002+08:00

back here to post again. first of all

happy hari raya to all those who are

celebrating it. hmmm. exam is just

one week away and im going to blast

myself for that hopefully i can upgrade

my memories like a computer. yup.

and know what? nowadays mummy

keep caring about me sometimes when

i got home late she will at least call

and ask me where am i or call just to

ask me weather i will be having dinner

at home hahahs. im so blessed to have

such a wonderful mummy. wont be

celebrating your birthday as im away.

hope you like the present that sis & i shared.

i just want to tell you this you will always

be a beautiful mummy in my heart no one

can replace you.^^ wont be posting for about

two weeks neither will i update my

facebook nor twitter so take care everybody!!!^^

2011-08-26T22:47:00.002+08:00

oh mine!! i still left 1 week plus to study

for exams a BIG thanks to SHAN for

teaching me resultant force and now

i finally understand it and i can do that

question using the shortest formula.

hmm.. school today sucks got no chance

to peek at others or copy for test today

but still i manage to copy two question.

after school met geraldine kor at her

place there and i alighted at the wrong

bus stop ok and its really scary cause

the surrounding all terrace housing

and i dont know where am i too.

so have to meet at northstar bus stop

there waited for her to come and

off to here and there reached home

bath and sleep. and here i am blogging

a post which does not go through

my brain. OK going to stop here.

2011-08-23T19:42:00.003+08:00

Hello!! time checked 0743pm

trying to start this new game

Dragon nest but the login cant

connect to the server will try

to start again tomorrow hmm.

school was fine today did some

revision question given by my

class advisor and ended school

at around 11+ i wanna do some

revision at home but i keep

having sweaty plums and is very

annoying that my paper will get

wet the ink will merge together.

so i guess i have to study at

air-condition place.

2011-08-21T22:22:00.003+08:00

hello people!! just got back from work.

today was a fun and tiring day but

i enjoyed just that i really dislike that

second incharge she keep asking me

to go home early and she asked me to

go home at 7 when im working 11 to 9

seriously 11 to 7 minus break time is 7

hours and if i work 8 hours full i will

have extra 7 dollar her math fail?? or

she purposely ask me to go home?

irritating bitch National Day PH i only

left 45 mins to 8 hours she chase me

home. im so irritated with her hope that

i can slap her or something. ok shall

stop complaining about this bitch.

2011-08-20T23:39:00.002+08:00

WEEEEE!!!!just got back from work.

last night i dreamt that i bought an

iphone4 with Geraldine Kor.

ok i should say this dream is super weird.

hahahs work today was fine but working

with that idiot make me want to punch

her anyway i got a da ge because

he keep calling me xiao mei and we are

of the same age just that he is bigger

den me 2.5 month so i give him

this title he must be honored hahahs-.-

and YAY tomorrow is sunday

working 11 to 9 and im so loving this

timing heeehee(((:

2011-08-19T22:16:00.002+08:00

woots school ended at 11am today

as PE was cancel due to dont know

what. was a BIG YAY for me as this

is the only time that i can replenish

my beauty sleep and also its a long

time since i take afternoon nap.

im kind of excited for MEL Camp

will be away from Singapore for

6 days hahahas. will be going on

board the cruse on 11 til 17 if

im not wrong next month i dont

think i can even concentrate on

my upcoming exam which is on

the 6 September oh mine time

really flies at a glance. shall do

what i want to do now if not

i scare there wont be enough time

for me.

2011-08-17T23:02:00.003+08:00

Hi everybody! today school ended

at 230pm was actually thinking

of asking kor to help me check

something on compass in the end

she asked me to meet her so took

965 from yishun to sengkeng slack

talk and be crazy. and reached home

at about 8pm ate my dinner, bath

and watch television. currently

waiting for my phone to be fully charge

and off to sleeping time. im seriously

tired why does sleeping time seems

faster than day time?? and know what??

there is class test tomorrow and i have

forgotten all about it. oh gosh pray hard

that miracle would happen if i leave blank

for the test. current time is 11:11pm nice.

2011-08-15T20:44:00.002+08:00

this few days i have been feeling

lost. know why because i was

afraid that everybody will be

leaving me i just dont know

why i got this thoughts but i

hope that at least that one

person would be there for me.

2011-08-12T14:09:00.002+08:00

going to get change for working

after this post this few day

damn tiring i swear i dont have

enough time to sleep and haven't

been sleeping good as well due

to my dad not going to work

and my sis have to sleep in my

room hmm.. i dont like my dad

to be at home ive got so many

things cant do when hes at home

cant watch my own tv channel

cant talk loudly cant use comp

til late is really irritating uh.

Rawr'!!! and im having cramps now:((

2011-08-10T22:45:00.002+08:00

wooots! im studying my test

for tomorrow now and blogging.

im doing multi task hahahas.

is the 1st time i did this.

improving hahahahas.

hmmm. im kinda sad by

everyone cause they are changing

and im like the one that never

change hahs well this is life isnt it??

2011-08-07T01:16:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

HAHAHAHS. quite true. you can take this quiz at http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2011-08-03T19:39:00.002+08:00

once again hello to everyone.

tomorrow going to buy some

7 month stuff for praying with

my beloved big sister hahahas.

so long never go shopping with

her already and she reminded

me that my mums birthday is

next month and we intending

to buy a gold dog for her as what

my sister says it brings lucks

hahahas im not sure about this

kind of things but we are sharing

money to get this together

not including that annoying bitch.

hahahas. this will be our mothers day

gift and birthday present for her.

as we where broke on mothers day.

heehee. ok i shall stop here now

peepos^^

2011-08-02T20:47:00.001+08:00

2011-08-01T18:50:00.003+08:00

ello August goodbye july!!

can you imagine time flies

so fast and i will be having my

exam next month gosh! Maths?

need to study and ton again

with my classmate to study.

sigh~ and 1 year 25 days

to our anniversary hope

you both are being happy.

2011-07-29T19:33:00.003+08:00

school was okay lesson started at

9+am and ended at 1030am to have

our tea break and off to PE played

badminton today have a fun time

playing with my classmates. hahahas

i just cant imagine that i participate

in Tug-O-War and the competition

is at 8 of August which i dont intend

to go to school on that day as ITE

is having celebration for

national day but i will

go just to have that competition done.

hahahahs. after school went to Hougang

Mall to meet mummy and off to NTUC

bought a lot of things for 7 month

and help mummy to carry back homed.

and its been long since mummy cooked

finally ate home cooked food after so long.

^^ bye peepos.

2011-07-27T22:36:00.003+08:00

im so touched by geraldine's kor

you know why? after the last

appointment she still remember

the date for my next appointment

but not the month hahahahs.

wish her lucks for tomorrows

competition. hohoho. she can

be a sweet girlfriends im wishing

you to find your real love soon.((:

2011-07-25T19:16:00.003+08:00

i really must thanks god for a

wonderful mummy i have had

she only left with a few bucks

to survive til next week if im

not wrong and she bought me

2 plain t-shirt white and black.

as i asked for it for it because

white is for work and black is

for schooling. and thanks for

giving me all the best that you

could. im in lost of words.

just want to thank you here.

hmm suddenly out of nowhere

i remember that you wrote me

a letter and i try searching for

it but nowhere to be found

but i remember that i put it

at the place maybe everything

is gone and cant be found

the letter is gone but the

necklace is here so whats the point?

2011-07-23T09:47:00.002+08:00

MORNING! sigh~ is a Saturday morning not looking

forward to it how i wish is Monday sigh~ but im going

to check my bank weather there is pay a not heehee((:

never really have a proper sleep yesterday because of

the rashes is killing me and making me pissed off. dont

know how am i going to survive for work later. hmm

shall stop here. and watch Doraemon.

2011-07-20T19:35:00.009+08:00

HI PEOPLE! is Wednesday today and

tomorrow i have an appointment at

National Skin Centre (NSC) hope that

Geraldine kor is free and can accompany

me if not i will be going alone just like

how i did on the 1st visit at there.

recently dont know what got on to me

im not looking forward to each day

infect i pray hard that weekends would

never arrive because of working on

weekends and i felt i dont have time for myself

like sleeping surfing the net and many things

that i like. is this life? i miss hanging out with

all my friends miss those memories that we

went drinking at clake quay and going to each

other birthday party and those time we

went prawning at bishan. sigh~

2011-07-14T19:41:00.002+08:00

yawn.. im tired at this timing 7.42pm

today went to meet geraldine's kor

after my school ends at 11am. and

at yio chu kang smoke and grab

some puff to eat at the 7-11 and

and went to kor's house cause

she want to change to slipper reached

her house rest for a while and watched

MR Bean hahahas funny show but we

watched for awhile. and off to yio chu kang

went leaving her house there is this back

door with railings on it so i have to climb

with skirt and a wounded knee lucky i did

wear shorts inside but my knees are hurting

cause i stretch to much on the wound there

even till now i still can feel the pain. sigh~

today is thursday and im not looking forward

to friday and weekends because i have to work.

on this days hopefully by next year i can enrol

to driving centre. ok i shall stop here my post

is way too wordy already. have a nice day.

2011-07-13T19:20:00.002+08:00

im happy that she text me again.

asking me what am i doing

and shes now learning how to use

computer and english hahahas.

was kind of happy for you.

hope you are doing great.

today happen alot of funny things

in class 1st was denis talking about

funny things and i laugh till my jaw

going to drop 2rd was my stomach

make noise was so embarrassed and

funny at the same time. 3rd was

i talk until half way and i suddenly

stop. hahahs having great days today.

2011-07-11T22:33:00.002+08:00

i cant really walk properly as my leg

is still painful the injection and the wounds

cant stretch really much on that area hmm.

today went drinking with kor, cass, griya

& rachel. i drunk half of it and pass it to

cass i just dont understand why my face

is so red when i drink. it was a tiring day

as i slept at 2 and woke up at 6.30am

this morning and off to school. im happy

today she text me but she did not reply

my last text:(( sigh~

im just being random for the post above

there is no link at all cant write a proper

post as im really tired. byebye.

2011-07-08T23:36:00.002+08:00

just got back from work im really missing

working with jaiyan godma she always cheer

me up when im moody and when im in the

deepest of my life i told her what happen

and she give me advice she did cheer me up

too. hmm. this is part of life isnt it? my working

aunty are friendly too when the tray is too oily

she asked me to do other stuff a lighter job.

hmm. but i still prefer jaiyan godma who will

joke around and make me happy. i told her

everything even my real mummy also dont

know. my real mummy is also good but i

dont know how to tell you when i have problems

and all because sometimes i dont want to make

you upset. but still mummy i love you.((:

2011-07-07T20:47:00.004+08:00

today i take MC from work

to go and do the surgery

i was scare and nervous when

i lay down the doctor give me

one injection so that i wont feel

any pain and after that she shave

off the popping thingy after 5mins

it was done. i myself also get shock

because its so fast. thanks mummy

for being there for me. who help

me to sign the declaration as im

still under 21 years old after that

off to bugis because mummy wants to

do some prayers and off to hougang mall

had dinner and bought some bread home.

and right now im resting my poor legs.

shall stop here. :D

2011-07-06T22:15:00.003+08:00

i seriously think that i have some

weird skin disease or what.

my knee got this round thing

popping out the doctors all call

it warts. im so frustrated right now

damn itchy cant scratch or what

because is infected and the areas

there keep coming out this yellow

transparent juice dont know what

the heck is that. and today i spend

a few hundred dollars to see doctor

plus my face also since the doctor

asked me weather i want some

medicine for my face. im so moodless

right now. actually wanted to have

a good rest at home today but ended up?

ROAR! just tolerate 3 more days of

working and after that is school reopen

and i shall work less focus more on my

studies as the module have exam on

next term. im scare of tomorrow

surgery although is a minor one

cause they are going to inject 2 times.

how? how? why they just cant take

my life away and let me surfer?

2011-07-04T00:05:00.004+08:00

just got back from home after

joanna's birthday party and

i learn quite alot of things

to treasure things around you

before its too late. hmm

was shock to hear those things

but i must thank god that i

have a wonderful parents.

when i parted with my friend

at woodland i kept listening to

the song WHAT ARE WORDS

BY CHRIS MADINA and alot

of things came into my mind

and a tear drop down emotionally

hmm. i dont know what can

i do for my parents in future

but i can promise you that

you will have every proper

meals and will have clothes

to wear. thats all i want to say.

2011-07-01T22:10:00.003+08:00

time checked is 2222hours.

tomorrow going to try out working

at four leaves hope it will be a great

day because a new environment

and have to communicate with new

people around me. i know this is

all part of life but im nervous

some how pray that it will be a

good one for me and friendly people

would teach me nicely without

scolding or shouting at me.

2011-06-30T20:07:00.002+08:00

time checked 2008hours.

i know is early to blog right now

but im freaking bored.

the most happy things today was

i found a job and will be working

on this sat at bishan hope that it

will be an easy job not so stress up

like last time. going to say NO to

cigarettes its a waste of money

seriously. i have already cut down

and i did it by not smoking for 3days.

hahahahas like a happy only.

today marks the 1 month of _____

and i just deleted the text on 22.04.11

you said you dont want to lost me

on that date but what you did now??

what a joke seriously after the breakup

the very next week you already have

your other life partner.

love is all bullshits! byebye all((:

2011-06-30T00:51:00.002+08:00

i have nothing much to post for the past few

days all i can say it was awesome going for

drinking session on 33 birthday and the next

day we meet up too. hmm... i have this bad

dreams yesterday. i dreamt that i was slash

by some people on my right shoulder and

they help me to stitch back and some how

i did something wrong and they cut my

shoulder flash out. quite scary. but when

i woke up i can feel that my shoulder are

painful and this dream is kind of weird too.

alright to that someone who is trying to make

me have attention on him you said this on your wall:

Give me your hand but realise i just wanna say goodbye .

Please understand i have to leave and carry on my own life .

this is what you said and your decision so i granted your

wish. hmm and now you are in a relationship hope you last

long with her. im not sad or what because times heal everything

and now i no longer feel anything. yup((:

thats all i want to say. Good Night!

2011-06-24T00:47:00.002+08:00

YO! im wondering why do

guys melt girls heart???

im just being curious out

of randomness. anyway

i have delete the past 5000+

messages now i left with

2000+ hahahs jiayou jiayou

to myself. will not be posting

anything till monday going

to drink drank drunk on sat

so i guess when im reach

home will be kind of tired

to blog so yup.

STAY COOL!!

2011-06-22T22:24:00.003+08:00

stupid idiot bloody hell sis!!

rawr!! keep taking my junk

food snacks. when i wanted

to take hers she ask me to

buy my own and say i always

told her this when i take her

snacks is like WTF?? that was

when im young okay? so

GEI KAO for what?? =.=

hmm. mummy have the NTUC

voucher im going to bring home

the whole NTUC soon. hahahas

im not being petty or what

im just bored and i can say

this is a radom post!!

blame it for not eating proper meals

keep eating junk food all day long

and now im getting a serious gastric

pain rawr. FML!!

2011-06-21T18:55:00.002+08:00

hmmm never go out today.

yesterday i suppose to have posted

something but there is something

wrong with my sis comp cant load.

so here it goes...

went to class gathering yesterday at

my classmates house ate steamboat

talk chat and play games. it was a

fun and enjoyable day cause last time

when it comes to class gathering i always

never turn up. hmmm. this sat im

having steamboat again at 33 place's

cause she will be having her birthday

celebration and i might be staying over

hahs. and there might be also drinking

session too woots woots cant wait.

ok im going off to do my stuff byebye !!

2011-06-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

2011-06-16T14:25:00.003+08:00

hmm. today went to school for

test and i must thanks diah for

sending me text and the answer

for the test yup, we are one for

all, all for one.((;

after test bused back home!

and there is this feeling that

i want to tears i just dont know

why maybe i miss being cared,

loved and pampered.

2011-06-15T18:44:00.004+08:00

hello world! did not went to school today

as there is nothing much left for me to do

except for my test tomorrow. never study

and go school how great is it today? hmm.

stay at home for the whole day watching

drama quite nice should introduces you

guys to watch this 醉后决定爱上你 is a very

touching drama. how i wish there is oreo

cheesecake right now i remember once

when im feeling low i ate 1kg cake.

come to think of it im so silly at the point

of time. hahahas. is it that after all these

evidence of love completely disappear

then i can finally forget about you or is it

until the day of my last breath? hmmm?

2011-06-14T06:49:00.003+08:00

i have sorted things out is

a mixed feeling i guess and

i should declare that i will

always become singleness.

hahaha, im like a nonsense

now early in the morning

talks about feeling and shits.

will be getting my butt to

school in another half an hour

time im so super duper happy

like a happy kid today the

my besties or sissy had started

talking to me and even text

me regarding the job so gonna

treat you to bakerzine to eat

oreo cheesecake. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

you look more mature when you say

dont because of work thing spoil our

friendship. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2011-06-13T18:37:00.002+08:00

i have hug my phone to sleep last

night wishing that you will text

me but until now theres nothing.

fine i will move on and lead the

singleness on my own im sure

i can did that no more giving my

heart to people. it belongs to

to me the one and only me!!

11:11 i dont believe in that i have

been craving for oreo cheesecake

till now i still haven get any chance

to eat it with my beloved.

2011-06-12T16:49:00.004+08:00

how i wish time could turn back to the past

but sigh~ 6.5h more to our 3rd month anni

i thought you did text me but it was my

wishful thinking but after this day i hope

i would be strong and be the real me.

and carry on with my life.

I was born with flaws, an imperfect. but I never

understand why do we have to aim to be the

perfect flawless being? Is it necessary?

2011-06-11T10:18:00.003+08:00

never post anything yesterday because

im really tired. yesterday went to school

for lesson and PE lesson for next week

have been cancelled is a YAY! for me

hahahahs. i think i hurt my shoulder again

the is killing me again. i think i smack

to much while playing badminton yesterday:((

after school met geraldine

kor at yck and took bus down to amk

centre to slack and waited for cassey

gratz to you two last long!! today when

im a wake the first thing came into my

mind was him why do i suddenly think of

him? is 3 days to our 3rd month anniversary

hope i would be fine after this day.

i will walk down this lonely path that i have

chosen and take the pain alone.

im sorry but because of one sentence someone

told me i have really lost confidence in myself

i have to leave and take this path alone. LITING

you are strong you can take the pain and walk

alone. after so many things have happen all

i can say that you went through so many things

and you become stronger and stronger.

and yes i have learn how to be firm.

okay! i guess i shall stop here. not going out today.

2011-06-09T19:18:00.002+08:00

hmm.. i just reach home today

went to keppel fels feel so cool

if i work there. but the bagalahdash

very weird keep waving the hands.

after that the bus drop at the

nearest MRT station which is at

boon lay than i train down to amk

to meet geraldine kor and cassy

ate lunch and slack a while than

we decided to go pasir ris for a cycle

so took bus 88 down to there.

and rent our bike and cycle all the

way to red house. when cycling back

i waited kor at the chalet because

cassy never cycle so kor waited for

her and i go ahead with my cycling

while waiting saw bagalahdash again

they say HI and wave to me like a

crazy only. but today is a great day

for me but not for kor hope everything

would be fine for her tomorrow.

2011-06-08T10:56:00.005+08:00

never go to school cause im

having cramps again sigh~

if only im working now

and i would have lots of gucci

loots still haven fulfil my wish

on my 19 birthday i want to get

gucci tote bag sling bag wallet &

shoe chennel earing too.

and i wanted to use my own

money to get all this im kind of

missing my gucci lost wallet right

now:(((

PART2:

KWEH LI TING!! you got to be

strong and move on this is what

you wanted because you had enough

of missing your partner and because

of this you been in tears for days

and your partner dont even know

about it before you leave him!

oh well i guess you would be the last.

im going to lead back to my reality life.

PART3:

met mummy at hougang mall ate ban mian

and homed after that.

tomorrow going to keppel ship yard im

so excited with it.((:

2011-06-07T06:55:00.004+08:00

Hi good morning world!

argh! i dont feel like going to school

today but still i have to in order

to finish my practical test and its

almost done just need to test on that

heavy metal have cracks and etc..

i have been feeling cold and thirsty

this few day going to sick again argh!

just so not my day today. oh ya.

dear god please help me look for jobs

as soon as possible im like begging

my best friend for $ erm i mean

lending but to me is no difference

lend equal begging. understand?

okok shall drag my ass to school now

HAVE A GREAT DAY AHEAD!

PART 2:

just got back home. from sengkang

when i got home that jack want to

find faults with me again saying that

i drink hes coke small things also want

to be so petty i never even drink your

coke. oh please! im left with $2 till friday

how to survive? have not eaten for the

whole day except for breakfast.

some more thursday im visiting keppal

ship yard again:(( i guess i would be fine

if i dont eat for 3 days? hahs.

2011-06-06T20:45:00.004+08:00

hmm.. today is the 6 day that im single.

just got back home.

today went to school to do my practical

after school met geraldine kor at hougang

interchange and accompany her to eat

with her friends at food court after that

went to pool followed my kbox.

and i just found out that someone waited

for you for 6 years she even can sacrifice

her hand by using a pen knife to write a

R with it. maybe you should give her a

chance because it shows that she love you

a lot and her face dose not even have pimples

scar with it. dont think of me just look forward

to your future im sorry that i have to leave you

the memorise you gave me was a good one.

thanks a lot i wont go to any relationships

any more because all they care its about looks.

i will look at the text very night and delete it

day by day and slowly the memorise would be

gone thanks for everything you given me.

im not a good girlfriend you can just forget about me.

im sorry for stealing your heart and your soul.

and i guess i would be fine after this.

maybe on the 31 may you find me very unreasonable

because im thinking all this while when you were

not reachable that have i really love you?

my mind went blank. and i think the answer is this.

2011-06-03T14:58:00.002+08:00

the reason why i leave you its because

of my face. i know you dont care about

looks. but are you telling the truth?

if you'd even look at a pretty babe

your mind your be like oh my god

how i wish this would be my girlfriend .

hahs well i have it enough of my looks

thingy and i shall stay single forever.

please take care yourself when you are

in tekong. i wont be here for you anymore

yup. take care.

2011-06-01T20:40:00.002+08:00

I HATE IT

I HATE MY FACE!!

i should listen to what my sis says

my face got so many pimples

who would want to hire me.

what a joke even my own blood

sister also say until like that.

even my family people say until

like this how about you?

you should be thinking the same.

2011-05-28T18:49:00.002+08:00

looking at some of my friends facebook profile

just now and i asked myself why am i not born

to me rich and educated?? and now i have to

study in a very big circle. oh well i should say

its the fact and i cant change anything right now

but just to study hard not like those rich people

outside pass or never pass for exam dose not

matter cause they are rich they can just set a

small business outside after their graduation.

as for me im still thinking of what to do after

i graduated from my current school. hmmm.

im missing him badly too. no know what he

is doing right now. sigh~

2011-05-27T22:36:00.004+08:00

well the weather now is pissing me off.

im so freaking hot right now. dont know

what happen to the rain of god. hmm??

went to school as usual today and im

proud to be the first person who reaches

school at exactly 9am class advisor was

on urgent leave and we do chapter 4 again

shielded metal arc welding. but our

relief lecturer gave us worksheet to do.

and the whole class went chaotic

was copying each others answer.

Next was Sport and Wellness my classmate

all went crazy playing handballs and badminton.

keep doing all those funny reaction hahahahahs.

now im still imagining it. Lols.

and finally home sweet home.

i realise that when i stopped working i kept having

fever and so many nonsense sickness.

now im down with flu, cough and slight fever.

what a friday i have had. urgh~

i shall have a good night rest now bye((:

2011-05-27T00:08:00.004+08:00

hmm. finally met syg after 1 week.

so what i do on june holidays?

make myself admitted

to hospital or what?

no working = no money

no money = never go out.

so it will be bored die me?

does looks really important to a girl?

my 2rd sis told me this just now

you take care of your face and people

will want to hire you. :((

and whats wrong with girls smoking?

we are human too why does you guys

smoke and girls cant isnt it unfair to girls?

anyway if you dont like girl smoke den just

get the shit out of yourself 1st before saying

that you dont like girl to smoke. im sure your

girlfriend dont like guys who smoke too cause

she doesnt even smoke!!!

i guess i shall start saving

money from now on dont

eat during lunch time and tea break.

& faster get my polaroid camera

so i could at least play with it.

2011-05-27T00:08:00.002+08:00

hmm. finally met syg after 1 week.

so what i do on june holidays?

make myself admitted

to hospital or what?

no working = no money

no money = never go out.

so it will be bored die me?

i guess i shall start saving

money from now on dont

eat during lunch time and tea break.

& faster get my polaroid camera

so i could at least play with it.

2011-05-24T19:17:00.003+08:00

hmm. today test was easy but

all i can say was this teacher does

not allow us to cheat but we still did.

today is a moodless day

for me having chewing problems

cause im growing wisdom tooth:((

i still remember the first time i

grow wisdom tooth i told my friend

& he told me no wonder you dont

have wisdom cause your wisdom

tooth haven grow is this true?

im still wondering.

2011-05-23T19:51:00.002+08:00

was actually surfing the net and studying.

now it seems like i cant control myself to

study im using facebook and not studying

now. how i wish test would come out something

on facebook hahahas. i guess it will be only a dream

ok! KWEK LITING PLEASE CONCENTRATE ON

YOUR STUDYS ALRIGHT? IF NOT YOUR

FUTURE WILL BE GONE.

2011-05-21T19:07:00.002+08:00

im bored right now.

cant think of anything good for my project

& guess what i wrote crap on it. & i have

not even study for my phrase test yet.

hmm i really feel like giving up my studies

since i dont like studying so why not? sigh~

mummy is starting work on Monday than

after school where can i go? i dont wanna

face that jack. sigh~ should think of something.

2011-05-20T07:27:00.002+08:00

Good morning to all! after posting this

i will be preparing to go to school.

come to think of it. its been a very long

time i went for shopping kinda of missing

my work pay as i would anyhow spend?

& pay the things without looking at the price.

sigh~ can sky drop the money down so that

i can spend? should save up more so that i can

go for crazy shopping. im just being random hmm.

i shall go & prepare now if not i will be late.

BYE PEEPS!((:

2011-05-18T00:06:00.003+08:00

it looks like you dont understand me

that well i have been emoing since sat.

& you feel irritated instead of asking

me what had happen. sigh~ im really

am confuse by all of you & even worse

just now why did you suddenly text me?

asking me still remember the date when

we last watch a movie together?

i have totally forgotten about you. why did

you suddenly text me with this question?

even your shadow have disappear in

my heart. you have your girlfriend so just

move on with your it alright?

i just have to put on a smile & i can overcome

every obstacles isnt it?

Maybe problems may come to an end one day.

2011-05-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

feels the head is spinning, shoulders aching & the heart is empty.

im just feeling empty now all i can feel is aching & head is spinning

when would this stop? argh~ i miss him badly:((

2011-05-10T11:57:00.002+08:00

im superdy duperdy bored right now.

guess i shall just go to school later on.

school starting at 2 & will be ending at 5

or later. & might be fetching syg or syg

fetching me see what time dose the school

ends today. this shall be a short post.((:

2011-05-08T22:01:00.001+08:00

this is horrible the weather is worse

than yesterday. & i have to bathe

more den 2 times a day? when can

it starts to rain? i feel like moving

on to north pole seriously.

2011-05-07T20:23:00.002+08:00

seems like im going out with a wall

keep talking to her friends on

the phone & i just go round & look my

own things & she just follow. so freaking

frustrated plus this weather sucks.

urgh!! i feel like my body is hot water now!!

2011-05-02T10:08:00.002+08:00

29.04.2011 Friday

syg fetch me from school &

we lunched at north point

MacDonald after that we walk

round the mall to find couple

things but dont have so we keep

walking round & round. syg says

he wanted to do big business so

we faster go take cab & we waited

for the cab like about 45mins?

so freaking long plus the weather so

hot. so when we reach syg place

the first thing was go toilet. & slack

at his place after that. around 5 i go

home bathe change & meet syg at

meet my house downstairs so we

go to hougang mall to look for couple

things again but dont have so we went

to compass walk round again but nothing.

so we bused to Bugis walk round & we

finally bought a couple polo tee from Everlast

& off to Bugis street cause syg wanted to

buy a skinny & a plain shirt but in the end

there was nothing so we went to iluma to

catch some movies but all the tickets are mostly

sold out so we played arcade for a while

den we went to Bugis Junction & we bought the

thicket of fast & furious5 & the movie was

extremely awesome. after that went to syg house

to stay over.

30.04.2011 Saturday

reached home in the morning was dead tired

& i sleep for the whole day.

01.05.2011

went to east coast park played bubbles & we

went to walk around saw this slippers & once

again we bought a couple slippers. after that

head to Bugis Street & syg bought a bermudas

& headed to iluma as i needed to go toilet urgently

after that we bought perfumes at the shop there.

im to lazy to continue.

2011-04-27T23:11:00.002+08:00

hmm..

its only the 3rd day & im missing you badly:(((

if i say i like you,

its just a lie because i love you,

and because i love you,

everyday i will love you more,

today will be more than yesterday

& will be less than tomorrow.

hope you are having a sweet dreams right now.

nights!

2011-04-27T13:38:00.003+08:00

My girlfriend Kweh Liting is one of a kind . The love that she has shown me , cannot be count , measured or weighed or calculate . She is a gift from heaven to me and she is someone i love deeply with all of my heart and soul . I love her for whatever or whoever she is . I will never leave her alone in her dark times and will always walk through everything with her , be it good or bad . So baby , just to let you know , i've never and will never regret knowing you or being with you . I love you and that will always remain . I love you my one and only Liting ! :-*

2011-04-26T18:45:00.003+08:00

hmm today lesson was bored..

1st was theory after tea break is practical.

& the practical make my eyes uneasy i think

is because of the mask that is too loose anyway

we cant do welding without the mask

& some x-ray thing to prevent our eye

from being burn and blah blah blah

many more but im lazy to type.

home sweet home after that reached

home on comp & stare at it for a long

time & chat with syg after that he needed

to do his things so i stare at the comp for

a long time. than i see my phone somebody

use dont know whose malaysia no. to text

me but i only know how to read the first

sentence & it sounded freaking weird so

i waited for my dad to wake up & i ask him

whats the meaning he say ta dui ni hen ma?

wo bu jue de lo. tou tou mo mo de. this really

make me think that im a ______ this remind

me of the nightmare:'(((

2011-04-25T23:33:00.002+08:00

time checked 11.36pm on my lappy.

hmm.. today school started at 8am

tea break at about 935am if im not

wrong? & i randomly smoke with

1 big group of my classmates & we

went back to to class at 10am.

manage to cover up the topics for today

so we ended at 12pm. headed to had

lunch at north point ate fried rice with

my classmate & we chatted a while &

went back home. chatted with syg on the

phone & facebook a while & take a afternoon

nap. i cant remember what i do after that.

i think i watched some scary investigation on

youtube. today is a freaking bored day for me.

anyway syg is in camp he will be back on sunday:((

kind of miss him now sigh~ anyway please take care

of yourself alright?hmm. bye! peeps!

2011-04-24T01:02:00.003+08:00

tonight is a wonderful night!((:

im in a happy mood today.

our love have grown deeper with all the quarrels.

im so surprise with the gift that you have given me

i will be wearing it everyday & not taking it down

so every time it will remind me of you.

my love for you is deeper than the ocean , & deeper than the sea.

im so deeply in love with you is what i know((:

2011-04-23T00:58:00.005+08:00

im really really really really sorry.

can you forgive me & cheer up?

is really a misunderstanding.(:

can you please go & sleep?

cause you haven sleep for days?

just wanted you to have a proper sleep

but ended up??

but i am not sorry that i have met you
i am not sorry for felling in love with you
i am not sorry letting you in my life
i am not sorry to love you.

2011-04-21T23:12:00.002+08:00

well i sorted everything out.

i dont know what your mind is thinking

seriously you change to so many faces

one moment happy the other moment

sad in one day how am i going to accept it?

just what you want tell me straight.

anyway im not going to let it affect my

mood already just want to be the cheerful

girl who will be laughing over small jokes.

what makes me happy was i was selected

in mel camp & will be going on cruise to

phuket this coming july should be a

3 to 5days trip. now im so excited about it.

2011-04-20T23:36:00.002+08:00

im feeling frustrated and sad at the moment.

my mum told me dont mix with you so much

if i continue she will throw me out of the house but...

what she says really make me think far im so

confuse right now plus what had happen just now.

im sorry if i have hurt you but im feeling so confuse?.

should i ask for a timeout or a breakup? i really dont

know what to do. seeing you cried just now really makes

my heartache:'( seriously i dont know what your

mind is thinking. maybe i should go to the old ways i

have been. but truthfully you are the first guy i have

deeply fall in love with. but if we dont end this now in future

we will have difficulties. i dont want to lost my family as

i have already lost my close/best friends in a relationship.

and no matter what happen my family will always come first.

and my friends would be second.

i will stop as my tears is rolling down like nobody business.

2011-04-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

FRIDAY 15.04.11

never go to school cause im having fever

wanted to stay at home but syg wants to

meet me. so i went to kk hospital we

meet at the MRT station exit there. &

went to buy cigarettes for her aunt. Then

we went off to kk hospital & the weather are

so fuck up have to walk from little india mrt

station to kk hospital so freaking HOT.

when we reached there we both sweat but

he sweat more than me. reach there met

her aunt & her aunt kids. off we went to smoke.

after that i forgot what happen already.

my memory full need to be deleted.

SATURDAY 16.04.11

as for today i went out with my mum she is so

weird her wound very pain she still can go round

shopping i ask her she want to go home a not

she reply me NO. see the way she walk i heart pain

im kind of worried for syg cause her grandma is in

hospital right now and he forgot to bring his wallet

plus he is hungry right now the worse is he might be

staying over at hospital but with no money with him?

syg please take care yourself alright?

i feel so emotional now im thinking of the past again

because of you i lost all my good/close friend:((

2011-04-14T20:42:00.003+08:00

MONDAY 11.04.11

first day of school & our time table sucks.

Monday 8am - 3am lunch at 12pm - 1pm

Tuesday 8am-12pm

Wednesday 8am-4.30pm lunch at 12pm - 1pm

Thursday 8.30am to 5 lunch at 11am - 1pm

Friday 9am to 5pm lunch at 12pm - 1pm

but as for friday only we cant finish our project or

want to continue our project than teacher will open

the room/workshop for us. teacher told us first 3day

will end at 12. and we have to end at exact 12.

time table sucks.

TUESDAY 12.04.11

never go to school went to sgh with my mum.

WEDNESDAY 13.04.11

HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!

hope that we can celebrate our anni by YEARS.

I LOVE YOU MANY MANY!!

really enjoyed the day with syg.((:

THURSDAY 14.04.11

as for today when i was about to step out of my house

my mum give me $10 every time i have to ask $$ from

her but today she automatic give me like can read my mind

cause i wanted to buy school books. headed to school after

that & was late for 30 mins. tea break straight away went

to buy school books & back for lesson today end at 11 i reached

home at about 12+? was not feeling well having slight fever again

fuck up life i have had. take a noon nap & was awake by the loud

& scary thunder:(( currently watching television+blogging.

thinking of not going to school tomorrow cause it start at 9 & end at 12.

2 hours of school?

2011-04-09T00:32:00.002+08:00

First of all i must declare that i am not working

any more i just resign because that fcuking manager

attitude sucks and i dont know why he can get a post

of a 2rd manager when he is so unreasonable but anyway

by venting your anger on me asking me to leave you

think i dont dare to leave just like that? since you all

want me to leave fine i will leave and you all are laughing

when i leave just want to tell all of you god or whatever

is watching you. so please dont be so happy that im leaving

& for sure i will be missing jaiyan ganma & SK thay both teach

me lots of things at work a great thanks to both of you.

just to let you guys get this im NOT A VENTING ANGER MACHINE!

PLEASE GET THIS RIGHT AT YOUR BRAIN!

2011-03-30T11:31:00.004+08:00

time checked 11.32am

i just woke up form my beauty sleep

and i feel so sick & giddy. i shall

stay at home for today. im missing

syg right now dont know what hes

doing cause his prepare low:((

I love you more than you can imagine

When I see your face it brighten up my day

I love you more than words can ever tell

Even more than what im about to say

I don't remember the last time i felt like this

You make me feel the real me

You don't know how happy it makes me

When I can share things with you,comfortably

I love the way you smile

I love the way you make me laugh

And you give me hope..

When things get a little sad

All of your hugs makes me feel free

From all the drama and trouble that life brings my way

If i would have 1 wish and one wish only

I wish for this love to be here to stay

2011-03-27T01:35:00.002+08:00

this week is full of entertainment

Monday & Tuesday was working.

Wednesday to Friday was at chalet

with syg with his group of friends

the chalet was fun just that i never

ton for the 3days 2 nights of fun

was sleeping like a piggy at night.

& today went to ecp to cycle with

the weird bicycle or i should say

san lun che? i dont know but

it have name for it. after that

we went to sun tan ourself by

sitting on the big stone till dinner

time & off we went for buffet.

not much ate and im full so i just

eat bit by bit but as for my friend

she ate alot like she can finish the

whole buffet thing that the person

inside prepare. & i wait till they

ate finish & we walk all the way to

the bus stop took 135 to macperson

to meet syg & he send me home.

& i think he must be soundly sleeping

continuing the dream he have had.

& tomorrow i might be going to nex

for the fun of going cause its been

a long time since i have enjoyed

myself. i should quit working &

find a better job i seriously dont like

F&B it sucks to the max seriously.

2011-03-21T23:45:00.002+08:00

today when i reach my workplace so damn

pek chek with so many people. but i just

heck care them & do my own things.

actually she asked me to knock off at 6

but i want to earn more $$ so i said i will

knock off at 9. & syg reach my workplace

at 6+ but after he sees me he went home

to bathe chnage clothes & i was so happy

that i get to see him & he came at 8.20

if im not wrong to fetch me home. was

irritated by what she says when i ask her

whether i can take another uniform & she

ask me to settle my problem. siao eh.

so i just heck her & went off at about 8.50.

when me & syg was so happy she text

me a weird message saying if i want to

go dating den next time knock off early.

wth my problem right? i also never disturb

til you or what. siao lang. i just ignore what she

text. reached my place & i slack for a while

with syg at void deck & homed.

2011-03-21T00:11:00.003+08:00

my eyes is shutting down but still i have to post

a sway day for me today got my middle finger

cut but dint notice anything & every single hot

drinks i made burn until my hand & fingers the

worse is my friend throw the cup & i dint catch

properly ended up hitting my head & its painful

than a soccer ball. & it freaks me out when i have

to talk to her alone outside the back door. seriously

i dont know what you are thinking sending those

sarcastic text to me & still can talk nicely infront of

me. now i really know whats the meaning of 2 face.

you asked me whether i would treasure the gift

if you buy for me something i would treasure it

because i treasure everything that people give me.

& you ask me if i would like to go on tour with you

again. obviously not because you would bring your

girlfriend along & say those sarcastic remarks to me

right? & seeing me hurt you would be happy right?

im going to live my life to the fullest & stop thinking

of the past. now im just contented with what i have &

will be looking forward to the future.

sorry i cant maintained anymore my eyes needs a rest

to hugs each other. nights!peeps!

2011-03-18T01:13:00.002+08:00

it been a week since i update.

the previous post was short & fast because

my friend or i should say syg?

lost his ring at sgh the place where we smoke

so i rushed down to the smoking area there

to look for it while i was walking back to that

place i called my friend & he asked me to turn

behide & he surprise me when i turned.

i was shock & touched at that moment because

is 3am in the early morning. & who would go

out of the house at this timing to look for friends.

we went to that smoking place to smoke

and we just sit at the area there to slack. hmmm.

quite a romantic place where the flower will blossom

& the tree leaf will fell down. hahahahs.

its between us.

& we got together on 130311. fate decides for us.

Imagine the woods,

Without a tree,

Imagine the rivers,

Without the sea,

Imagine yourself,

Without me,

Imagine how lost,

I would be.

2011-03-12T02:49:00.002+08:00

there's something wrong with blogger & i cant view it.

to my dearest mum yesterday when the nurse come

and fetch you to the operation room i was really scare

of losing you although its just a minor operation but it makes

my heartache seeing you in pain. i promise this will be

the last pack of cig i would smoke and i would be good

girl from now on. the operation was a success now im

only hoping that you could be discharge & thats all i ask

for. mum i just want to tell you this I LOVE YOU!

2011-03-09T12:09:00.004+08:00

im back home from school. had my last exam paper today totally srewed so many question i leave blank all need to draw digram but i never learn. zzz i think i will repeat this module. hopfully i can get at least a pass. i got an appointment at 1o;clcock going to cut my hair. so this will be a short post! bye peeps

2011-03-08T19:30:00.003+08:00

im going bonkers every minutes every seconds

why do everything happens before my exams?

i feel like crying but who will lend me a shoulder

to cry on? i have been emo the whole day because

of you & some other things. it would be a lie if i said

i dont miss you. but somehow it feels good to let go

of you. maybe im just missing you like how im

missing my long lost friends? hmm i cant find the

answer. but i saw this on my kor's fb wall.

One day , I'm just going to give up on you.

I won't be chasing you anymore.

And when you really want me,

I won't be here anymore .

this is true because i have decided to move on in life

if i keep holding back to things which are not mine it

will just make me feel worse. so why not letting you

go maybe i will have someone who treasure me more

than you do? & alot of things happen before my exams

& i should say if things get better i will be stronger than

before this is just part & passer of life.

thanks very much for letting me to know how to love

someone. & letting go of me would make me stronger

& clearer to pick my next partner. & i finally how the

worlds is like. thanks alot.

2011-03-06T19:18:00.003+08:00

im like half studying & half blogging right now.

i have receive your message you told me

that you miss me badly but did you know

when i have decided to leave you my heart

was broken into pieces and now you are telling me

this i dont know what going on. On your mind.

all i can say that is that i might think of you

sometimes when im on the way home.

i have put my heart down and forget about you.

i have given you the key to my heart but you lost it.

so dont bother to look me up again.

my heart have been lock by you.

2011-03-04T10:27:00.003+08:00

Im using my first own lappy to blog now

im happy that i got the wireless internet

but i need to save for now so that means

no more spending and need to chiong

work hopefully i will get at least a $800

on my next pay. but of cause i must take

care of myself so that i can take care of my

mum. God everything will be fine right?

anyway i find you weird you said you

miss me and wanted to meet me

i reply you when you free tell me i meet

you. but you reply me i want to

meet you now so i ask you why you

wanted to meet me now? and there

is no reply for it. are you playing with me?

well thanks for letting me to see your true colours.

lately i just feel that blogging is good

because some times when my friends ask

me why am i moody today but i just cant

tell them why but of cause seldom friends

would read my blog maybe like 1 or 2?

i dont know. i think i should stop here

& study for my exams.